Diary post!! My life has sucked recently... ;A; (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ but SMILES!!!!

Diary post,

Everyoooooooonnnnneeeeee,

I updated my post later than I thought I would ;A; and I feel so ashamed!!!!! >A< but nevertheless I will blog about these pasts to weeks that no one has heard of me!!! Hehe c:

So, a lot of stuff happened and there were a lot of ups and downs this month especially, and as much as it pains me to say this, but my November started horrible. I cried the last weeks of October and began my November in depression mode, and not to mention I hurt myself on Friday!!! D: YES. But I feel ashamed to even say this, but I got hurt jumping off a lab table, and landed right on my knee. Dx IT FELT HORRIBLE. I tried so hard to hold it in, but I haven’t cried from physical pain in years, but tears just slipped out and I let out a sound of pain. That is when people noticed me, and although the pain was mild at the time, as I walked, the pain progressed and I did not even know why. My friends tried to help me, but I personally did not want the attention, and I was just hungry, and tired, and just wanted to drink some nice cold juice. But of course, my stubborn actions got me nothing, and everyone just saw me as a stubborn crybaby, and I just wanted to crawl into a hole and turn into a mushroom TAT !! Although I saw what I was doing and what I felt to be completely justified but I am pretty sure the world saw differently. I refused to be helped, I refused to go home, I refused to go anywhere until I was with my best friend Crychi and since I couldn’t do much all I did was cry. Not to mention, my friends picked up by force, and since I could not fight back all I did was cry more. CHRIST, HOW OLD AM I AGAIN?! BUT IT CANT BE HELPED WHEN YOU’RE A STUBBORN ARIES WHO WAS PUT IN A SITUATION IN WHICH SHE CANT DO ANYTHING HERSELF AND THAT WAS ALL I COULD DO!!

So, I ran. Well, I limped away, the minute I could, towards home. But, well I was forced by the authority to go get my leg checked, and well, although it was nothing serious I did inflict more pain with my stubbornness. It was a little red and swollen around the knee bone so that was what caused pain, since my skin is sensitive and gets swollen easily. And so, at the end of the day I ended up with a bruise on my knee and literally dying from allergies because, COME ON, I fell on the floor face first, and no one cleans the floor where I was at and I get allergies from everything. ;A; //dies

I suffered trauma from that day and now I don’t even want to leave my house anymore T-T

I was actually quite chirpy the day that I am writing this post! I dont know why, but after going to the movies and watching Big Hero 6, my sorry week was masked by one of the best works Disney has done. Makes me actually wonder if Star Wars VII is really going to suck as much as people say it is?? 

I had a great conversation with the guy at the store in which I bought the shirt in the picture above, about how I shouldnt fret about episode 7, and that it's going to be great. Disney cant possibly mess something this great up. Right? That actually made my day, besides the fact that the title did sound a bit iffy to me, I would still watch it even if it was called, The Force has a nightmare hehe. ^_^ God I love Star Wars. And after watching Big Hero 6, it came to me that Disney really isn't all that bad and we are all just being crybabies. I guess to me it's mostly the fact that Disney always has to have it's logo at the top. IDK, but really I dont really have issues, but that's highly just me.

Besides all the bad things that happened this week, I did accomplish some things despite them not contributing to productivity in my priorities. 

LIKE THIS ANAKIN/VADER PAINTING I DID AND THIS IS MY FIRST TIME PAINTING ANYTHING!!!!!! LIKE FOR REAL, FOR A MANGA ARTIST WHO'S ONLY FORTE WAS COLORED PENCILS AND INK THIS IS JUST ^_______________________________________________^ AMAZING TO ME!!!! 

Also this as well, my older sister spraypainted a wooden crate, and I painted over it, and this was the result. Lolololol dont mind me, this was a quick selca to show how vaderific I was today hehe ^v^

See you sooooooon~

Bai Bai x

,Monise Saitou (☞ﾟ∀ﾟ)☞

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Moninitalk #1 +updates! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

Hello people!

Si it has been a while since I last posted on this blog or decided to do anything pertaining it but I have valid reasons if anyone is interested enough to know.

To start this off, I would like to say that people can have lots of changes and opportunities in life no matter where they are going and that includes EVERYBODY. That including me, whose mind was made to always be sent on a single goal and I would boost myself towards it no matter what. That being said, I would like to get a little more personal and less broad on this post.

I not too long ago made a relevant post like this not too long ago about “just doing it” rather than sitting down and thinking about it. Me as person, I always thought the best thing to do when I had no means in doing something, was to just sit and plan some more until I had my hands on what I needed. That type of strategy has its own pros and cons. Even though I would have a lot more to think about in doing and knowing that I will have even more projects soon, sometimes I get a little too carried away. I would think, HEY, how about I work on this right now that seems a lot easier than the one I have not been able to do at the moment. That isn’t a good idea because I end up dropping halfway and leaving an unfinished project just sitting there and sometimes can be forgotten! YIKES! But, I try not to fret about it, take a deep breath and find a positive way to deal with it.

This is what has been happening to me recently. Although I am still not an adult and I am still barely finishing high school, a lot of my issues began and are still happening my last year of high school. I am not going to say things like, gosh I am so happy to leave this hellhole, or AH IM SO SCARED OF GOING INTO THE REAL WORLD. Right now I am just in the processing, or “queue” of entering a new era for myself. And although I sense a new change coming from me, I have not been able to feel the coming of age entering my life. The day I walked into high school I was terrified, and now that I have such little time before I have to leave, I just have so many mixed emotions that is so very hard to explain. But the point blank is that, I am not exactly at the point in my life where I need to be sitting around and thinking about how great it will be to start a new project.

Oh hey!  (・∀・ ) So one interesting fact is that I was recently pulled off my chair (metaphorically I am actually on bed hehe) to go do something priority wise. Usually when things like this happens I usually use my muse and am unable to continue what I was doing, but I pep talked myself into continuing this post.

So this is what has been preventing me to write anything down. Although this blog was mainly for entertainment purposes I thought I would make it sort of a diary, cause hey, I am a pretty interesting person as it is! ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ  Huehue.
 Okie. This was an update sorta, and I will continue this, hmm, what should I call it since it wasn’t really a what happened so far post and more of a heart to heart thing for me. Moninitalks. Hehe.
(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ It has become official!!!

(~￣▽￣)~But since I put my point across, here are a few projects personal or not that I have in store for myself and the world! I put it in a setting that is easier and handier for me to display in my life planner. It’s a lot of fun too!! HUEHUE ( ^▽^)

·         GRADUATING BOSS BATTLE!!!!

·         PUBLISHING MAJOR FANFICTION WORK PROJECT

·         PUBLISHING MY FIRST NOVEL PROJECT

·         ENTERING THE REAL WORLD MAIN QUEST

·         COMING OF AGE SIDEQUEST

·         MY VLOG CHANNEL SIDEQUEST

·         GOING TO JAPAN( ಠ◡ಠ )MAIN QUEST SETTING*

WELL!!! That’s it for you guys! Hope you got a kick out of this update or came just for the boredom but either way you came! YAAAAAAY o(≧o≦)o

 (≧ω≦) ß FOREVER ALONE

See you guys in my next diary post! AND NEXT MONINITALK (✿◠‿◠)

BAI BAI x

P.S To lighten up the mood some pictures of my shenanigans during my absense;  love u J

,Monise Saitou (☞ﾟ∀ﾟ)☞

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