Sometimes it's hard to be positive when all the criminal arrows are pointing at you. This is all because of you, you deserved this...and that...
I hear it so much to the point that I've come to believe this is the way things have always been.
I lost a best friend today. I tried so hard, to assess anything I managed to have done wrong. Usually, it's easy for me, I'm pessimistic enough to always find a way to fault myself.
But this time, I can't find what I did wrong.
I know I've made mistakes, but I can't understand what would have been bad enough to lose a friend over. I've been betrayed, hurt, thrown away, and in this instant I can't defend anyone else besides me.
Losing a friend hurts more than breaking up with my first boyfriend. And back then, I felt like it was the end of the world.
I don't know how I'll ever be able to recover.
And I'm sure the other party believes I'm villainous and shouldn't be pitied.
They are simple-minded if they believe a villain has no feelings.
I haven't posted in a year and I come back with a shitty post.
What was this blog meant for anyway?
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