Diary post!! My life has sucked recently... ;A; (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ but SMILES!!!!

Diary post,

Everyoooooooonnnnneeeeee,

I updated my post later than I thought I would ;A; and I feel so ashamed!!!!! >A< but nevertheless I will blog about these pasts to weeks that no one has heard of me!!! Hehe c:

So, a lot of stuff happened and there were a lot of ups and downs this month especially, and as much as it pains me to say this, but my November started horrible. I cried the last weeks of October and began my November in depression mode, and not to mention I hurt myself on Friday!!! D: YES. But I feel ashamed to even say this, but I got hurt jumping off a lab table, and landed right on my knee. Dx IT FELT HORRIBLE. I tried so hard to hold it in, but I haven’t cried from physical pain in years, but tears just slipped out and I let out a sound of pain. That is when people noticed me, and although the pain was mild at the time, as I walked, the pain progressed and I did not even know why. My friends tried to help me, but I personally did not want the attention, and I was just hungry, and tired, and just wanted to drink some nice cold juice. But of course, my stubborn actions got me nothing, and everyone just saw me as a stubborn crybaby, and I just wanted to crawl into a hole and turn into a mushroom TAT !! Although I saw what I was doing and what I felt to be completely justified but I am pretty sure the world saw differently. I refused to be helped, I refused to go home, I refused to go anywhere until I was with my best friend Crychi and since I couldn’t do much all I did was cry. Not to mention, my friends picked up by force, and since I could not fight back all I did was cry more. CHRIST, HOW OLD AM I AGAIN?! BUT IT CANT BE HELPED WHEN YOU’RE A STUBBORN ARIES WHO WAS PUT IN A SITUATION IN WHICH SHE CANT DO ANYTHING HERSELF AND THAT WAS ALL I COULD DO!!

So, I ran. Well, I limped away, the minute I could, towards home. But, well I was forced by the authority to go get my leg checked, and well, although it was nothing serious I did inflict more pain with my stubbornness. It was a little red and swollen around the knee bone so that was what caused pain, since my skin is sensitive and gets swollen easily. And so, at the end of the day I ended up with a bruise on my knee and literally dying from allergies because, COME ON, I fell on the floor face first, and no one cleans the floor where I was at and I get allergies from everything. ;A; //dies

I suffered trauma from that day and now I don’t even want to leave my house anymore T-T

I was actually quite chirpy the day that I am writing this post! I dont know why, but after going to the movies and watching Big Hero 6, my sorry week was masked by one of the best works Disney has done. Makes me actually wonder if Star Wars VII is really going to suck as much as people say it is?? 

I had a great conversation with the guy at the store in which I bought the shirt in the picture above, about how I shouldnt fret about episode 7, and that it's going to be great. Disney cant possibly mess something this great up. Right? That actually made my day, besides the fact that the title did sound a bit iffy to me, I would still watch it even if it was called, The Force has a nightmare hehe. ^_^ God I love Star Wars. And after watching Big Hero 6, it came to me that Disney really isn't all that bad and we are all just being crybabies. I guess to me it's mostly the fact that Disney always has to have it's logo at the top. IDK, but really I dont really have issues, but that's highly just me.

Besides all the bad things that happened this week, I did accomplish some things despite them not contributing to productivity in my priorities. 

LIKE THIS ANAKIN/VADER PAINTING I DID AND THIS IS MY FIRST TIME PAINTING ANYTHING!!!!!! LIKE FOR REAL, FOR A MANGA ARTIST WHO'S ONLY FORTE WAS COLORED PENCILS AND INK THIS IS JUST ^_______________________________________________^ AMAZING TO ME!!!! 

Also this as well, my older sister spraypainted a wooden crate, and I painted over it, and this was the result. Lolololol dont mind me, this was a quick selca to show how vaderific I was today hehe ^v^

See you sooooooon~

Bai Bai x

,Monise Saitou (☞ﾟ∀ﾟ)☞

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Moninitalk #1 +updates! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

Hello people!

Si it has been a while since I last posted on this blog or decided to do anything pertaining it but I have valid reasons if anyone is interested enough to know.

To start this off, I would like to say that people can have lots of changes and opportunities in life no matter where they are going and that includes EVERYBODY. That including me, whose mind was made to always be sent on a single goal and I would boost myself towards it no matter what. That being said, I would like to get a little more personal and less broad on this post.

I not too long ago made a relevant post like this not too long ago about “just doing it” rather than sitting down and thinking about it. Me as person, I always thought the best thing to do when I had no means in doing something, was to just sit and plan some more until I had my hands on what I needed. That type of strategy has its own pros and cons. Even though I would have a lot more to think about in doing and knowing that I will have even more projects soon, sometimes I get a little too carried away. I would think, HEY, how about I work on this right now that seems a lot easier than the one I have not been able to do at the moment. That isn’t a good idea because I end up dropping halfway and leaving an unfinished project just sitting there and sometimes can be forgotten! YIKES! But, I try not to fret about it, take a deep breath and find a positive way to deal with it.

This is what has been happening to me recently. Although I am still not an adult and I am still barely finishing high school, a lot of my issues began and are still happening my last year of high school. I am not going to say things like, gosh I am so happy to leave this hellhole, or AH IM SO SCARED OF GOING INTO THE REAL WORLD. Right now I am just in the processing, or “queue” of entering a new era for myself. And although I sense a new change coming from me, I have not been able to feel the coming of age entering my life. The day I walked into high school I was terrified, and now that I have such little time before I have to leave, I just have so many mixed emotions that is so very hard to explain. But the point blank is that, I am not exactly at the point in my life where I need to be sitting around and thinking about how great it will be to start a new project.

Oh hey!  (・∀・ ) So one interesting fact is that I was recently pulled off my chair (metaphorically I am actually on bed hehe) to go do something priority wise. Usually when things like this happens I usually use my muse and am unable to continue what I was doing, but I pep talked myself into continuing this post.

So this is what has been preventing me to write anything down. Although this blog was mainly for entertainment purposes I thought I would make it sort of a diary, cause hey, I am a pretty interesting person as it is! ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ  Huehue.
 Okie. This was an update sorta, and I will continue this, hmm, what should I call it since it wasn’t really a what happened so far post and more of a heart to heart thing for me. Moninitalks. Hehe.
(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ It has become official!!!

(~￣▽￣)~But since I put my point across, here are a few projects personal or not that I have in store for myself and the world! I put it in a setting that is easier and handier for me to display in my life planner. It’s a lot of fun too!! HUEHUE ( ^▽^)

·         GRADUATING BOSS BATTLE!!!!

·         PUBLISHING MAJOR FANFICTION WORK PROJECT

·         PUBLISHING MY FIRST NOVEL PROJECT

·         ENTERING THE REAL WORLD MAIN QUEST

·         COMING OF AGE SIDEQUEST

·         MY VLOG CHANNEL SIDEQUEST

·         GOING TO JAPAN( ಠ◡ಠ )MAIN QUEST SETTING*

WELL!!! That’s it for you guys! Hope you got a kick out of this update or came just for the boredom but either way you came! YAAAAAAY o(≧o≦)o

 (≧ω≦) ß FOREVER ALONE

See you guys in my next diary post! AND NEXT MONINITALK (✿◠‿◠)

BAI BAI x

P.S To lighten up the mood some pictures of my shenanigans during my absense;  love u J

,Monise Saitou (☞ﾟ∀ﾟ)☞

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Irrelevance is Bliss

OKIE. Has it been a millinium since I last updated this blog?

Perhaps in some distant galaxy but the point drawn, is that I havent payed much attention to this thing. It is true. Now that I am trying to get my life together, and strapping myself up before throwing myself into the large wormhole called the real world, I am beginning to realize I have some real shit to pull together.



But besides that, I decided to rant about things that happened recently with the fact that I am currently throwing away the adolescant me, as I become a brand new adult. What I want to ramble about is the tenacity of the teenagers I had to deal with every single day as I studied to graduate high school. Dont get me wrong, I had my moments as a teenager, and can understand what they are going through. However there is a limit to how abrupt you can be in this society and especially among your colleagues and teachers.



Okie. So I was trying to get all my credits together, because without these I can not graduate, so even though I decided to take online school to focus on graduating,  I was required to take two classes on school campus. But as nonacademic as I was, I had to retake a math course I failed my junior year and I had to take a junior class. So yes. It turns out that even though I was brain dead in that class and had no idea what to do (I enrolled late in the year because of some issues), none of these 11th graders could help me in any way. Oh dear lord of the sith, how good it must feel to them to not need to worry about graduating on time, as they can just breeze through the class by doing classic things like copying homework and answers. However, that way is impossible for me as I have final exams that decide my fate of whether I should be released into the wild with a diploma. Ah geez. I am dying and totally no where near where I should be, and I feel peeved by all these people 1-2 years younger than me, who can even help someone like me cause I managed to stoop myself to the level of BEING NOT AT ALL SMARTER THAN UNDERCLASSMEN.



But anyhue, what peeved me the most this week, is people who are rude because they dont seem to have any care in the world. My good friend and I, who have the same goals in the entertainment industry sit and talk about ideas and pitches for projects we plan to do together. Even though we are happily sitting here, in our own bubbles, some person who for some reason likes to judge every little thing, decides to shoot down my friend's ideas even though she had nothing to do with the conversation. We are at all not grinches, and we do not mind if people want to listen, and talk with us, even though again, we seem to be on a different level from them. This girl, decides to be an IRL troll and try to tell my friend that she is doing copyright infringement to a movie she had seen. As I am trying to assess the situation without openly doing this:



She decides to prove her point with an assuring voice. However, as my friend quickly caught on she said,

"Are you talking about Happy Feet? That is no where near close to my synopsis."

Trollina: "It's not Happy Feet, blah blah blah blah blah, oh wait yea it is."

Me:



My friend: "That is not even close to my story"

Me: I'm pretty sure the characters in your story's feet are no where near happy.





But to sum everything up, people are just so irrelevantly incompetent that they do not even realize it themselves. As I am just here sitting and typing this awaited blog post, and longest I have written in history I proclaim that this society has it's fair share of trolls who probably aren't trolling for fun but they are just that imbecilic.

So I will leave you here because I am sleepy, and tired, and I need to sleep before I kill myself in the process.

Also! Check out my video blog I posted on my YouTube channel, which is basically irrelevant videos I had stored and have no shame of having recorded.

 Irrelevance is Bliss:





Anyhue Elephant lovelings,

Bai Bai x





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Might be lazy.... huehue

Herro people of the peepeeeeee-
mhm.
So people, lately I have been healthy, although recently I began to feel like my ear infection is coming back.

Literally me: NU. I swallowed too much garlic for dis.

I will literally nibble on myself and swallow myself interally if that darn infection returns to torture my soul.

But besides that fact I have been having too much unnecessary stress and headaches because my head decides that it does not feel like sleeping at the correct time, and I have become too distracted.
WHAT HAS BECOME OF ME. ^ literally read this while looking at that Husky. IT TELLS IT ALL.

Anyhue, I have actually done a decent amount of work and have got 98% of it done. For example, this manuscript I need to have done. Literally I am stressing over how happy I am that I managed to have a novel this amazing(in my own opinion) and the fact that I havent even sat down to write.
It's funny how I am with this! I know what happens from beginning to end, and I know all the little details and I fangirl about my own novel, BUT I HAVENT EVEN WRITTEN A MANUSCRIPT.
MONINI.
R U SRS.
Right now I am just finishing up basic design before I begin manuscript and I promise I will write thas manusrcapsssssssssss
Okie. I do daydream my novel everysingle day, in fact, I breathe it, but there is noone to share such glory. Which sucks, because I chose the path of entertainment without informing family and friends about my situation.
In fact, in September 2015 I am going to Japan for college, which is what my mother thinks. However, that is not the only reason I am going. I want to be away from my family for the short years I am there, and in peaceful quietness begin a writing career. Hopefully, this is what I want.
Which is why I chose to have a penname and for a while friends wont know about the things I do. My mother knows however, that I am not just her Monise, but in fact, Monise Saitou.
I hope she reads this one day and sees that this is what I have been doing this whole time on the computer, locked up in my room haha.
Yes, this is what is wierd, people will judge you for being on the computer and not being very social, but they have no idea what sort of things you are creating on here. c:
Hue,hue hue. c:<
Well, I'll get off and actually start doing something productive. Maybe that manuscript I want to have done.
Bai Bai! x

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SIGN ME UP FOR DISNAY

HERRO :3 Children of the toilet stream!! I am back and as irrelevant as ever, but hey! If I can eat a potato is all good! >:0
Anyhue,
If you guys do not know I am a huge fan of Disney classics, such as Peter Pan and Lilo and Stitch and my preference does not just lie in these two franchises. I also love the Pixar movies from the past and some good old Dream Works, and that Big Hero 6 movie coming out doesnt seem to bad. I'll have a link down below.
I remember as a kid I used to dream of being in one of those movies, and even loved drawing those character movies, and man, did I love me some Shrek back then.
SHREK.

Huehuehuehueuheuheuheu c:

Back to the toothpick, I was also into a lot of anime back then. I MEAN ALOT.
My mother was probably convinced it was just Pokemon, or innocently Sailor Moon, or even dreading it was Dragon Ball Z(Dad prease, what has you caused...)
No, it was craycray back then and I was even innocently watching H related animes and not even realizing that H was THAT KIND OF THING.
YES MONISE YOU WERE WATCHING PEOPLE HAVING SEXY TIME AND NOT REALIZING THAT BECAUSE YOU WERE TOO BUSY ENGROSSED IN THE PLOT ANSDLASJKDLK CSDL-

But even so, I cant believe I managed not to be tainted by the horrible ways of the world and how everything has to do with H these days.
SIGHS. What is this world even.
Even so, I managed not to be TOO obsessed with anime because all the animes I know are from the olden days and the animes now Im just like Oh hello dere..
So now, I would like to get down to business. I became such a dreamer that I decided that I wanted to make my own Disney movie. YUS. That was my dream among the many I still have yet to accomplish. For example, like making my own Star Wars movie, and would like to present my own Fanfiction as the plot.
DISNAY PLEASE ACCEPT DIS.

 

But I'll leave ya'll kids alone for now >:3 

Bai Bai! x

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Big Hero 6: http://youtu.be/z3biFxZIJOQ

UPDATE: Health can restrain you from your life!!

So I havent been able to get back on track to my usual routine because there is something literally has me handcuffed to the bed!

The wretched ear infection!!

Yes. This thing. It has come back to haunt me this year, and it seems I'm prone to ear infections during summer seasons, even if it's every other year.
Sighs. KILL ME NOW.

Anyhue, Ive decided to live through this and just not swim anymore, because according to my doctor I'm not cautious enough while I'm in the pool.

Well, whatever, I was never much of a swimmer anyway.

God, did this INFECTION HURT LIKE HELL. I was so restless for four days, and to the point that my entire left side of my face was sore and it felt like my jaw would rip apart!!

For four whole days I suffered endless pain, and I just cried to release tension and I prayed for the pain to go away.

Since I was very careless about my infection and I was very reluctant in taking pain killers, I suffered more
than I needed to.

So as I am typing this, I am recovering and still have a bottle of antibiotics to take even if I feel better.

I CANT WAIT TO GET BACK TO MYSELF.

I will definately update this bloggling as soon as I get back on track.c:
YAY FOR THE PEOPLE WHO CARE.
LAWL.

Bai Bai! x
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Do it now instead of daydreaming!

So it's been a while since I decided to sit down and write. It's not that Im too busy but more like I am spending too much loitering around and thinking about what I can do and not putting myself to it. I think I am beginning to show characteristics of that trait that I hate the most, the condescending dreamer who is actually a lazy person. I am actually not a lazy person!!! Hehe. There are some times when I dont have motivation and I just roll around like a potato waiting to be picked up and placed in a new adventurous road!! But that is not me! I know that for sure!

But to put things clear and understanding myself as well, I have decided to finally get back on track towards my road of life!
Yes! That road of life that includes my dreams, goals, work, and love put together all at once!! That is the carreer of entertainment!

Which gets me down to this topic I would like to discuss with the readers of this blog. Its been an impending subject that has not left my head for the past few days. So a couple days ago, a friend on YouTube posted a video regarding a concept that has been bothering her for a while. This concept I believe is that YouTube now a days is no longer the YouTube we used to love and know. This, could be explained in many ways, including the fact that everyone nowadays dont even attempt to post videos because they donot believe YouTube is for people like them but for Youtubers. Excusing me for not knowing that YouTube made a plural version of its name to describe the high level people who post videos and also happen to be extremely famous. I also do not believe that anyone who wants to become an Entertainer, has no hopes because they dont have similar circumstances, are not beautiful, or have good quality cameras. In my opinion not every talented person is born with circumstances that will allow them to become what they want to me. That includes me, heck I am not able to buy my own camera because I have no job and my mother can not afford such liesurely items. So that means, that I can still hold onto my dreams, and wait a few short months until I turn 18, and finally begin my career in the Entertainment industry.

So that being said, I made my own choice to get a job, make my own money, and become an independent person at my own rate. I am not gonna take the Gambling road and find myself a miraculous key to the gateway of fame. I am not even looking forward to fame, I am looking forward to being acknowledged of my work, and show the world what I am capable of. I also do not wanna be released into the world as a teen, even though my life as a teenager kind of sucked.

Anyhue, people donot believe in themselves enough to follow their dreams and leave a mark in this world. If you do not believe you can do anything in this world, look at this specific line on this blog post and read:
 STOP BULLSHITTING AND DO SOMETHING. Yes, you must stop whining and beginning doing something rather than putting yourself down and believing you can not do something. This lead me to create this new range of products called : L'Effort est ma force, with my sister and best friend. These products I am hoping will not only make people happy but drive them to be reminded everyday that they can do anything if they just DO IT!

Dont worry about the quality or what people will think, what matters is that you are doing what you love! I also donot believe I can do just one thing. I want to try different things, and although I am not perfect I know that I can do it even if it's mediocre!

Thank you so much for taking time to read this post people!!

Just remember this one quote! It means: My willpower is my effort.

Your hardwork now will achieve your success!!

Bai Bai! x
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Bai Bai! x

dirtydirtydirty nerdynerdnerd

So I decided to continue blogging because there is probably someone out there who finds me entertaining.
Someone out there.
Hiiiiii c:
This person better be reading this.
Anywho, I've started doing virtual school because I apparently have not enough credits to graduate.
Freakin Math.
So I've realized that I have enough fanfiction written than I have homework done all 12 years of my life.
Hahuehahuehehuhehauuee
Ok Fine I'll stick to one topic.
Im writing a novel. Actually I've been writing it since 8th grade during my free time, and I kind of  put my fanfiction over it priority wise lol.
But who cares!!
Because now that I will be an adult I will start letting go of my childhood hobbies and focus on a carreer of said hobbies.
Wait, that doesn't make sense.
Okay! I haven't written fanfiction I swear to god,  but I will make them public for the internet's entertainment. They're Star Wars fanfiction.
So the fanfiction I've written up until now was for my own entertainment but I have taken an oath on entertaining the world rather than myself.
Ah that didn't sound right.
Lately I've been saying dirty things and not even realizing. Well for some reason, EVERYTHING is dirty.
You are no longer safe eating a banana.
YOU KNOW WHAT IDGAF I'm going to eat my banana, in fact I'm going to chug it down! NO THAT IS NOT WHAT SHE FREAKING SAID.
Aghhhhhhahdajsdalskldsa,als,dld;sd/s;lkll!!!
Anyway, I'm posting a story to fictionpress soon, and once I get my website up, I'll post dat shit like its nobody's business. Actually it is your business but anyhue, this is just an update.
For that ONE person who actually cares.
Hi. c: *sits on your head*
BE MY CHILD.
Bai.
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Chibi chan

       So recently I've been researching alot of science related topics.Like Telemerase and stem cells. It's useful! at least I am able to put this information in good use!

Hue hue hue.

Also, I'll be graduationg next year and it makes me wonder what I'll be doing afterwards.

Will people even treat me as one of them?

Haha, thinking about this makes me realize that people wont look at me as an eleven year old but as a miniature person.

Yeah, kind of used to that by now, but hey, if you look like a ten year old now, you'll eventually look like a 17 year old until you're 50.

Dont know if that's a good thing?

Well, doesnt matter, I dont drink anyways!